April 29, 2009
April 30, 2009, 3:18 am
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Up earlier than I’d intended, when at the last minute this morning I decided to take hubby to work and keep the car. I have a few errands to run, some flowers to plant and the sponsling that was coming today called because she was mandatoried to work OT, a split shift, and then go back in today on her day off.
The critters are fed, and the sun is finally coming out to burn off the fog. It’s supposed to be nice today, with rains returning tonight and tomorrow. Don’t know if I’ll get a chance to run the mower or not…but you can’t even tell the grass was cut on Saturday. It’s amazing to watch the incredible amount of growth around the yard…trees, flowers, veggies. I love it.
I started juicing yesterday again…dug the juicer out of the top cabinet and cleaned it up. I had about 2 cups of carrot and cauliflower juice yesterday. This morning for breakfast I had carrot, celery and garlic…it was outstanding!! So, that’s part of my errands today, to get some organic vegetables for juicing. I’m going to replace one (maybe 2 later) meals with fresh juice and see if it doesn’t make me feel better. I’m also going to get a little more serious about our meals…and will eat up the last of the fish, chicken, etc in the freezer and move towards a more Vegetarian diet. It will take a couple of months probably, so don’t worry ((Steveoroni)) there will still be bbq for the Gathering! lol I just feel like it’s time.
Last night for supper I had some multigrain wraps I’d bought at Aldis, a brand called Fit’n Lively (they were fabulous!!!), and I used them like a pita bread. I cooked up the falafel into balls and patties (patties worked better), spread the wraps with a peanut satay sauce, layered the falafel with thinly sliced yellow and orange bell peppers, onion, mushrooms and radishes.Put the tiniest drizzle of sweet’nsour sauce down the middle and wrapped them up. Served some black olives and marinated artichoke hearts on the side. It was scrumptious! I would definitely make this again. I need to get more falafel. lol
Today I have the other half of that pork shoulder roast in the crockpot, along with some bay leaves and garlic cloves and onions and celery. I may turn it into enchiladas or maybe just throw some taters and carrots in and have it like Sunday dinner. Whatever I do, there will be enough leftovers to be creative with for at least one more meal, as well as a nice sandwich for that man’s lunch.
I also bought some beautiful strawberries the other day for 99 cents a quart. I cut them all up and they are ready to put a little whipping cream on and eat while we watch the 2nd half of Titanic tonight. I have never seen this movie. Because I am a clunkhead. I’m pleasantly surprised at how much I like it. lol
Okay–off into my day. If I play my cards right at some time management today, I should be back here by noon and ready to dig in the dirt.
Namaste.
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April 28, 2009
WHERE DOES THE DAY GO ???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
It’s 11 Am already! I have a lot to do, plus about 20 pages to read before class tonight. Plus housekeeping because it’s been raining for 2 days and everything smells like wet dogs and somebody tore up a furry deer tail all over the front porch and now it’s getting tracked in every time the door opens. And I have a little neatnik sponsling coming tomorrow to work on her 4th some more, so I have toi at least vacuum. AND I have a gazillion plants that need to go in the ground. And yet, here I sit.
I have been up since 7 AM. Attended to the critters and had myself some coffee. Had 2 phone calls and made 1 phone calls. One of my sponslings is in the hospital today having knee replacement surgery, so I called her husband and left a message…she was in at 8AM. Praying that all went well.
I have been reading blogs and having a grand time this morning, all in all. However, it is not conducive to getting things done. SO—I guess I’ll turn off the ‘puter and get on with it as soon as I finish this. Lordy…the older I get, the more time I lose. lol
I did manage to light the lilac candles, so the wet dog smell is dissipating some. The crazy part is that the dogs are mostly staying outside… I know that my nose is hypersensitive to smells…and that’s a good thing, really, when you have as many critters as I have, here on Honeysuckle Hill. I smell things my husband and other people don’t…sometimes when we come in from being gone my nose goes on high alert and I start walking around smiffing…”Do you smell that??” I’ll ask hubby and he rolls his eyes and says “NO..I don’t smell anything.”
I need to get some laundry done today too. How could I have forgotten that? And I need to have supper ready early so himself can eat quickly and we can be at class by 7. I usually try to make something that’s portable, so I can eat before he gets home, and then he can clean up and eat his in the car on the way there while I drive. I did buy some multi grain wraps yesterday. I could make something with them… It’s vegetarian night tonight…I think I have some falafel in the pantry–that might make for good base filling. Hmmmm…one thing about cooking vegetarian is that after awhile, you really have to put some thought into what you’re cooking. And that’s always a good thing !
I have a little sick kitten here this morning, all quiet and still not eating. She’s drinking some water though, and isn’t nearly as warm as she felt yesterday. I had some amoxicillin from another cat , so I am giving her tiny little doses of that. I’m a little worried about her. She got underfoot and was stepped on the other day. Nothing seems broken, but I’m a little concerned that something have been injured. She has moments of playfulness though…hoping it’s just a bug.
Time to love up this baby and get moving….
Namaste.
April 27, 2009
I think I have screwed up the days on my blog. lol Must be because I am a neo-Luddite. (Which, btw, I looked up and it is not a bad thing!) lol
Anyway, today is Monday and the thingy hanging on the wall with all the letters and numbers on it says it is indeed the 27th. So–there you go.
I am resting up from the weekend and kept the car today to hit a noon meeting and get a pedicure and manicure. My hands are hellish looking from digging in the dirt with no gloves–got the potatoes in yesterday, as well as some pumpkins and squash and bell peppers- and it’s been over 2 weeks since I had them done. More like a month for the piggies. SO, I’ll do it because I can, and stop and pick up some pet supplies and get on the computer and order printer ink and watch the soft rain falling, making the world sparkle.
I was thinking for some reason this morning, about the past years in recovery when I have had newly sober or not yet sober women living in my house for short periods of time, and how trying that was. lol The gist of it, always, is that I don’t know HOW in the world anyone could have lived with me when I was a mean, falling down drunk. It baffles my little tiny mind. I read stories here of (especially) parents living with their children’s addictions and of the heartbreak and the torment of watching them slip into the abyss of alcoholism/drug addiction…wondering if this is going to be the time you lose them. My son was 18 when I got sober. He was on his own hellbent path and spiraling down faster than I could bear to watch. I couldn’t fix him, all I could do was pray and watch and love him no matter what. And the women in this program just held my hand and kept telling me that God has a plan for my son, and that he had a higher power and it wasn’t me. I sure don’t miss those days.
And here is my message of hope, for all you moms and dads…when my son finally hit his bottom, he was dragged into the program of Alcoholics Anonymous by the courts. He finally was able to get and stay sober (under threat of incarceration) long enough to find out how good it really was and he has been clean and sober for almost 9 years now. He has cleaned up all the wreckage of his past. He has completed all his parole and probation and fines. He is fully accountable to himself and the world today. Most importantly, he takes full responsibility for his actions and his behavior today. I just want to say to all of you, don’t lose hope, never give up, and trust God that there is a solution for broken bodies and mangled minds. (For both them and you.)
Okay. I have had 3 phone calls in the course of trying to write this morning. I am turning off my phone and heading out the door.
Love and blessings and peace and joy… wherever you are on your journey.
Namaste.
April 27, 2009, 12:41 am
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“These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers. Deliver this award to eight bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly-written text into the body of their award.”
Crikey. I’m like , totally awed by – not only by this award from Steve, (which I finally managed to get on here) but by the fact that I was finally able to get it on here. lol
Let’s see…do I know 8 bloggers?? Who participate in this tomfoolery? That haven’t already been named by someone else??
I read a few bloggers without fail. They mersmerize me with thier humor and their sensitivity and their lives. I have started to read some who don’t blog much, some who blog like machines, and some like me-that blog when they can.
I read Mama Zen, who entertains me and educates me with an always gentle hand.
There’s my alter ego The Daily Piglet, who regales me constantly with her honesty and hilarity.
Then my brother, Andrew, who rarely posts on his blog, making me feel like I’m not doing SO bad when I miss posting. (HAH)!! xoxoxox
Then there’s the wacky woman from TX, and we all know who she is. ( cluck cluck).
My pal Zane from down yonder too, a senstive and honest man who speaks to my heart.
Todd from Hell’s Kitchen, who feeds me snippets of life in his glorious city, which I have never had the opportunity to visit.
My best and dearest Mary LA. Who has already recieved this award, but I don’t care. So there.
Ditto my Gabi, with her beauty and serenity.
You will have noticed that I didn’t post any links to these blogs. It’s because I am a technotard (right, Todd?) lol Most days it’s amiracle I can even dress myself.
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SO. I have had the absolute busiest past week! Some weeks I think I am busy. But this week was off the charts. We have had several new people show up around here and these women are great. I have had lots of sponsor work with people going on. Amazingly (must be spring fever!!) noone is dragging their feet over these 4th and 5ths. Suddenly. All at once. lol
The gardens are in process. Lots of yard work and planting and all those kinds of good exhausting stuff. The mower is all tuned up and spit shined and has a new blade and the yard got it’s first haircut yesterday.
We attended the most wonderful Earth Day celebration yesterday. It was an all day event, we were there from 1 PM to 9 PM. We hiked in the woods for over an hour, collecting items from nature that spoke to us, and came back and built environmental art pieces. We wrote haiku and we had a marvelous vegetarian feast. Then we went to a rustic lodge atop the bluffs overlooking the mighty Mississippi River, where we had a poetry and music Coffehouse. Almost all the performances were directed at the sacre space we call home, this green and blue planet. People brought their own poetry and they read other people’s poetry and they made all sorts of music. We had singing, we had trombones, we had guitars. We had children and we had every age group from 83 to 7.
I built an earth wheel sculpture to hang from a tree here at my home. The hoop was grapevines and willow, I found a piece of wood that looks like a heron or an egret in profile. I used the spikey sweet gum seedpods, moss and lichens, prairie grasses and dried flowers. As soon as I figure out where I want to put it, I will take a picture of it and post it here. I was pleased with the way it turned out, even though it took me forever to hear what the materials were saying to me. Some people left their pieces there on the property but I decided to bring mine home. Patrick left his there.
It was a really great day all around. I can’t think of a better way to honor the Mother Earth.
Okay. I have another busy day on the menu. This morning I have to go to a meeting and give a woman a 3 month coin. 90 days of continuous sobriety is a big deal !
Then I am putting on a workshop at 2 for new GSRs and I have to get all the printouts organized and into the little folders I bought for them. I managed to accumulate quite a bit of good information, actually. Hard telling how the turnout will be for this, as the weather is supposed to be glorious again today (80s) and there is also a Serenity hike this morning at a group in town. They’ll be hiking up at Pere Marquette Park and picnicking. As District things don’t always have such a geat turnout here anyway, it was a hard call. I finally decided I would make 15 copies of everything and if it isn’t enough, we’ll just deal. More than likely I will bring 12 home with me. lol
My expectations are not all that high.
Alright. I have work to do. And today, I do it with a willing heart.
And that’s good enough.
Namaste.
April 23-24, 2009
Is this cheating? Can I post 2 days together, since I started the post yesterday and walke off and completely forgot about it?
How does my life get like this ?!?!?!? LOL
It’s almost 10 Am on Friday. I am just starting this thing over again…I was up at 7 to get a pecan pie made to take to the noon meeting. One of our crusty old farts is celebrating 26 years today, and he loves pecan pie. In the spirit of good will (since I make fun of him ALL the time) I am offering him an olive branch …lol. Seriously, he knows I love him. I thought it would be a nice gesture, since this is his favorite and he doesn’t get one very often, and almost never a home made one. My good deed for the day. *grin
Yesterday I had a sponsee over for lunch and a 4th step. That took up a good part of the afternoon. Then we picked up another newbie who recently moved here and hauled her down to the womens meeting. It was great..had 13 women there. I picked the last part of the chapter “Into Action” for the topic and it was awesome. ONe of my other sponsees brought me a trunkload of tiger lilies last night, so after the meeting we took the time to transfer them from her trunk to my trunk. I’m going to plant them all out along the fence line. There’s a TON of them!! The one that came to lunch yesterday also brought me a red , a brown and an orange daylily. I am making out like a bandit here !!!
Tomorrow is the Earth Day celebration out at the Ecological center. That will be a full day of fun stuff. Sunday I am putting on a workshop for new GSR’s…and am not prepared for it really, but guess I will wing it. I do have some printout stuff from the GSO, and have lined up 3 panel speakers to tell their stories and and to help field any questions. It will all work out, I’m sure. It’s hard to say if anyone will even show up…you never know about these things. Especially if the weather holds…
It was 75 degrees yesterday and is supposed to hit 80 today. It was thundering and grey, but now the sun has broken through and it’s just gorgeous. Husband is working on tuning up my Troybuilt mower so I can get some yard work done. (What a guy, huh??) lol The grass is places is about 4 inches high now.
Thanks o”Roni for the blog award!! I haven’t been able to cut and past it onto my site, but I haven’t given up the fight. lol
(((Andrew))) I talked to the seed people finally. And yesterday I got an email that my seeds were shipped, priority, so they might well come today. I ordered all kinds of stuff…Carrot, collards, sweet corn, popcorn, turnip,pumpkin,squash, green beans, bell peppers (3 kinds), Sorghum, Basil, Nasturtiums, Rosemary, Sage, Parsley, Lemon Balm, And tomatoes. From another place, I got mustard, kale, beets, and sugar peas. I’ll be busy, eh?? xoxoxox Can’t wait to see you…. (fingers croseed and toes too).
Okay–I gotta run., Still need to make a birthday card and get dressed.
Namaste.
April 21, 2009
April 22, 2009, 9:06 am
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: Amazing Journeys, kitty treasures, Universes
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: Amazing Journeys, kitty treasures, Universes
Holy shiskabobs, Batman!! It’s a brilliantly sunny and extraordinarily windy day here today. I have hung almost 3 full loads of laundry on the clothesline, and was nearly beat to death by the blue jeans in the process. By the time I was hanging the third load, the first was almost dry. I would guess the winds are around 45 mph…
I have torn the back room here apart and started cleaning…finding little packages of kitten poopies here and there. All dried out and deodorized, but kitty treasures nonetheless. Mostly they are doing a grand job of using the litter box, especially for as young as they are. In the midst of the chaos of pulling things away from the wall and moving things about, they are delighted to find all kinds of cubbyholes and tunnels and hidey holes. I just fed them lunch, and was hoping they’d lay in the window and sun and nap. Instead, they are more active than ever. lol
I’m nearly finished with laundry. I have a pot of lentils simmering awaywith some ham hock added, along with kale and swiss chard and carrot and onion and garlic and bay leaves. It will make a quick and healthy supper with some sprouted whole grain tortillas to sop up the lovely broth. If I add a little rice it may even be thick enough for hubby to make a burrito mess of a thing with.
I finally got ahold of the people from the heirloom seed company. I was getting more than a little nervous. I had called and left 2 messages and emailed as well, to no avail. When I ordered the seeds online, they said it would be a 2 week shipping p0rocess. It has now been a month and still no sign of them. They said they are absolutely overwhelmed with the increase in orders this year, that they are running about 2-3 weeks behind. She looked up my order and said I should have them in a few days. She was very nice and apologetic and set my mind at rest that I hadn’t been the victim of an online scam. I ordered about 50 dollars worth of seeds…I want the heirlooms because you cannot save seed from hybrids, they won’t grow true to the plant. It’s going to be my big project this year, saving my own seed. I’m excited about it.
I have stripped the bed and am changing the linens…guess I’d better finish it up. We have the Amazing Universe class tonight. The book is very interesting and very deep. Not an easy read this one…much more analytical and scientific. It will either be really interesting or I won’t be going. lol
Alrighty then…I’m off to cross some more things off my list *grin* and stir the soup.
Enjoy the Journey….
Namaste.
April 20, 2009
April 21, 2009, 1:42 pm
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: dust bunnies, kittens, The Foolproof Plan
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: dust bunnies, kittens, The Foolproof Plan
Late in the day…one of those days where you have all these good intentions and watch them all go by the wayside to be replaced with other things. I did manage to get my house vacummed, with my super duper magnificent machine of an Oreck. I’m serious…that vacuum is a thing of beauty and a joy to operate.
I hung out at home most of the day. Did a little shopping and had to fill the gas tank on the car becasue himself “forgot” to do it yesterday, like he “forgot” to buy the birdseed when he went to Rural King, like he “forgot” to move the bags of potting soil into the mudroom to make it easier for me to fill my flats for planting squash seeds. Arrgghhh….
My plans for tomorrow include laundry and taking it easy. lol I may or may not hang the clothes outside to dry, depending on the weather. It did actually rain some today, so I’m glad I didn’t get to it today. It was a day of chatting on the computer with a dear friend from Australia, several telephone calls from sponslings and friends, housekeeping peppered in here and there. Lots of kitten loving going on and all that sort of thing involving dogs and birds too. I am amazed by how much time I waste since I have retired. lol I used to be Ms. Efficiency 101 in all aspects of my life. Not so much anymore. I wa stalking to one of my sponslings today and she was talking about how she has so much to do and she gets all whacke out behind it. So, I told her of my foolproof plan of lists. I make a list every day almost…of the chores I need to do, the phone calls I ned to make, any toher “Important” things. Then, when I finish each item, I cross it off the list. Then if I do something that wasn’t on my list, I write it on there, and cross it off. Then by the time I quit fooling around and the day is about done, I take any items that I didn’t get around to and move them to tomorrow’s list. Then I go back to today’s list and cross them off that list. LMAO!!!!! I used to be a much more meticulous housekeeper (can you say–OBSESSIVE????) than I am now. I don’t know. The older I get, the less dire any of this stuff is, it seems. A little dust on the tables doesn’t send me into the screaming mimi’s like it did once upon a time. I don’t think the health department would close me down, but I’m sure my house isn’t clean enough for some people’s tastes. Oh well. I have lots of things that need doing, but I just look at it like job security. lol
Okay, enough of this. I don’t live like a pig or anything. I’m just sayin’…if a little cat hair makes you nuts–don’t come visit me. We’ll just have to meet for ice cream at the Dairy Queen….
Life is good.
Namaste.
April 19, 2009
Rained all last night and washed this morning’s world all fresh and clean. I love the smells of morning after rain. The lows were 50 last night and 60 yesterday, so it was beautiful spring weather. Today is calling for more of the same, only with more rain in the daylight hours. April showers.
Q: If April showers bring May flowers, what do May flowers bring?
A: Pilgrims.
My favorite grade school riddle. lol
We worked in the yard and garden yesterday for a good portion of the day. Turning over beds and adding more compost, planting flowers–I planted bee balm, snapdragons, pansies, poppies, and transplanted a few errant lilies that have popped up here and there. I still need to relocate my Siberian Irises, and have a few more hens and chicks to put in the ground. I have given away a lot of them, but there are still a few more left. I planted red raspberries, filling up an old bed with a few more plants. Then I put up stakes and made a string trellis for them. Hubby is laughing at it, but I have a plan. *wink. We planted several rows of Detroit Dark Red Beets, edible pea pods, and a patch each of Mustard and Kale. This should be enough planting to keep me from doing anything rash. I also have butternut and acorn squash seed to get the indoor flats of seedlings started. They will be in the ground by the 2nd week of May, if all goes according to schedule. That should be late enough to be safe. I am all fired up to get gardening. I always get like this in the spring. It’s a great time for me to get the opportunity to practice restraint of trowel and hoe. lol
We’re talking about setting up a small grape arbor in the backyard, with a bench or two underneath it. A place to sit in the shade and watch the garden grow perhaps, or sip a cool glass of lemonade while watching the natural world pass us by. I should think it would be easy enough to build one of lattice panels and 2×4’s…I’m also sure that one of my gardening books has plans for a small one . I don’t want anything too big. Grapes grow rather well around these parts…I could can juice, though I hate making grape jelly. I actually hate making almost any kind of jelly, much preferring thick yummy sugar free jams. I almost always make peach jams and blackberry jams and strawberry jams and apple butter and sometimes pear butter. Grapes just for picking and eating would be good too.
Just a quick note to all you wonderful people who care and have asked…the medical tests all came off without a hitch. (Well, except for the torture part!) lol I am healthy and clean and shiny on the insides. One small polyp was removed and the doc is fairly certain it is benign, but sent it off to pathology anyway just to make 100% sure. All the blood work that was done came out exceptionally well…cholesterol at an all time low for me (though I”ve never been on the dangerously high side anyway), thyroid is functioning exactly like iot is supposed to. I am sleeping better since she put me on the small dose of trazadone again, so I’m not so dead tired all the time. Now the ball is entirely in my court…more exercise is what I need to get in, and since the weather is warming up, my joints aren’t hurting nearly as much and I will be able to walk every day. That will help immensely. So, thanks for all your prayers and thoughts. I’m shooting for about 25 pounds right now. My first goal. I have lost 5 of it so far.
Okay. Today is the morning meeting, followed by lunch, followed by the monthly District 18 meeting. I have all my flyers for the workshop made, flyers for my women’s meeting speaker/potluck made and everything ready to take.
Now all I have to do is get dressed and head out the door. I just wanted top stop in first thing and start getting back on track. It took me a few days to get rested up from all this stuff, but I feel like I’m ready to launch now! lol
Have a grand Sunday…. Namaste.
April 14, 2009
April 15, 2009, 7:33 am
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: Cranky to the last drop, John Lily, sensory deprivation tanks
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: Cranky to the last drop, John Lily, sensory deprivation tanks
My yesterday was too too full of too too much. I was barely able to get on the computer to read tiny bit. And today things are acting up and driving my already befuddled brain to distraction. I wound up at the laundromat last night around 8 PM with a mountain of laundry, because the well has flooded and is full of dirty water. Sigh… I was really hoping to be able to do laundry at home, but it wasn’t to be. I got home around 10, and was so tired and hot — feeling like I was going to keel over.
Today is not much better. I slept until 9 o’clock this morning and I am still tired. Today is the day before the colonoscopy, so I am on a clear liquid fast, couple with all sorts of nasty things to clean out the colon. I am hungry and lightheaded and feeling generally shitty (no pun intended). In half an hour I start the particularly strenuous part of our program…the 2 litres of nasty gut wrenching liquids that will render my inner self shiny as new penny.
I am trying to look at all this through rose colored glasses, and the truth is that somewhere inside (and not all that deep inside…) I am scared. I have had 3 friends with colon cancer in the past few years. I don’t think that is my deal this time around. But there’s something going on somewhere and I want them to figure it out. I see my regular physician on Thursday to find out what the blood work and the chest xray said.
Time is crawling today. I am feeling like I think John Lily must have felt when he went into the deprivation tanks in the 60’s and 70’s. He had some interesting experiences in a box with no light, no sound, immersed in body temp water. You should read some of his writings sometime if you haven’t. Really cool stuff the mind does when it’s sensorially deprived. (Mary…is that a word? I don’t have the strength to pick up the dictionary. lol)
I am so tired. I remembered that back in my Yute (sic) I used to fast one day a week because it was a healthy thing to do. Every couple of months I would fast for several days in a row, and the first day was always hardest. You go through stages of extreme tiredness, moodiness, hunger pangs, feeling empty and then eventually a feeling of almost euphoria sets in. You’re really not hungry anymore. You have an incredible amount of energy and clearness.
I’m hoping that’s how I’ll feel by tomorrow. Right now I am cranky and low and generally blah. And my head hurts.
In the meantime, I am laying around and liustening to soothing music. Handel’s Water Music is always a favorite of mine. It is an overcast and chilly day out there and I am cotent to stay here and take it as easy as I can. I am sipping broth and lemon juice in water. I had one cup of black coffee this morning and i may have nother later. More likely I will have some herbal tea. Iwill bundle up and stay warm and know that I am going through all this in the process of taking care of myself, and that is ALWAYS a good thing.
I may or may not post again tonight. Have to see how it goes.
God-rereading this, I feel like such a drama queen! LOL
Namaste.
April 12, 2009
It’s a grand Easter Morning here on the Prairie. Husband is off to town for a morning meeting and I am still in my jammies. I have a ham in the oven with an Apricot, brown sugar and Mustard glaze. It smells heavenly. I’ll fix some sweet potatoes and green beans and maybe some cole slaw. I have plenty of leftover carrot cake cupcakes, so I am not baking anything else til those are gone. lol
Not really too much to say this morning. The pups have been out walking the perimeters of the neighvbors pond, where the silt and much are the blackest black. So all their legs and feet are nasty. I made them go back outside until they can clean up their acts. lol
I think the grandson is coming back this evening. And a sponsling is coming tomorrow, so I need to do a little maintenance housekeeping and am going to have to hit the laundromat to get clothes washed. I should have done that yesterday…after hubby gets home he will see if his repairs worked on the pump. If they did, I will be able to do laundry. If not, then an afternoon trip to town is in order.
But for now, I am cooking and watching kittens frolick and listening to the glorious sounds of Ravel on the stereo. Life is good.
I was thinking earlier about how the Easters past were always a combination of food and family and drunken episodes. Those episode got worse and worse as years went on, until I stopped celebrating most holidays altogether. I would just stay home and drink myself into oblivion. In this, sobriety was truly a resurrection of my soul. I have learned to live again and to love again and to be a contented and happy useful person, instead of that miserable and hateful human being I became. Even then, I KNEW this wasn’t my true nature, and I couldn’t figure out for the longest time how this had happened to me. And I had no idea how to fix it. Pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization, my life partners.
Today, it’s not like that. My spiritual path has led me back into the world, into the light. My days start and end with prayers. They are peppered into the midst of my days as well, every time I feel grateful for something, or need clarity about something, or just feel awed by the creation around me. Tolkien said “Faith dares the soul to look beyond where the eyes can see.” That means something to me today..that I have to trust my Creator, that there is more going on than I can possibly know, that the plan is in the works. In that state of humility (that maybe I don’t know everything, *grin) I can see. I can believe. I can live ODAAT.
Life’s a dance, when you know the steps…and take it easy, one day at a time.
Happy Celebrations to all, wherever your path leads you. Gandhi said that All religions are beautiful flowers from the same garden, or they are branches from the same majestic tree. All paths lead home. All paths lead to God.
Blessed Be !!
Namaste.
